As of Saturday morning, Jordan is completely off the Abilify. It is a long lasting drug, though so it will be a few weeks before his system is clear of it. Doc had prescribed him Ativan for his extra special days. One .5 mg pill did absolutely nothing for him, but 2 turned him into a very angry drunk. So much for that hope. She started him on Seroquel when I told her how aggressive the Ativan made him. After one week at the starting dose of 100mg a day, she's already doubled it, with plans to do so again in a week or two. Now, I'm not looking for a cure. I'm not one of those people. I just want him to be happy, stop hurting himself and enjoy life.
Over the weekend, we were able to do something we haven't done in a ridiculous amount of time. We had a family fun day. Ok, we had a family day...the fun part might be an exaggeration.
We headed to lunch at McDonald's (meh) and then to the zoo. Our already small zoo has had quite a few animals cross that rainbow bridge the past few years, and our kids do 'speed zoo' so it was a short trip. Which isn't a bad thing. Brett had fun, and Jordan scowled most of the day. But he participated, and didn't hit himself once while we were there. They even played a bit.
Despite the fact that our lives seem to be turning to shit, we still manage to have a little fun, smile, and love each other. There is nothing that makes me more proud than my boys. Whether it be Jordan taking selfie photos on my phone (top picture), Brett running around the house singing "Smells like teen spirit" by Nirvana- word for word, or Brett watching his big brother playing outside and telling me "Mom, look at Jordan...he's so happy". Um, so yeah. My kids are f-ing awesome. And they are my heroes. I might have to deal with some pretty crappy stuff, but every day they wake up and live it. At the end of the day, no matter how much they might hate each other, we make them hug good night, in hopes that someday soon it won't be forced...
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